Monday 5 September 2011
The end is in sight!
How many times have I wanted to come on here and write down things I have been doing....just never seem to have the time!
But finally I think I have talked myself into resting and relaxing in these last few weeks, after all, the hard work is yet to come! I feel I have been nesting endlessly for weeks! From crying because I had no drawers to store my babies freshly washed clothes (seriously cried for a day) to crying with sheer exhaustion because I just want to lie down and sleep for a longgggg time but feel guilty or knowing that there is yet more that I have to do! Why is it that when one room in the house gets sorted, ALL the others fall into rack and ruin!
It has been a super busy few weeks. Putting up a new shed, clearing out our bedroom and Reubens room, putting furniture together, more sorting, more washing.....I officially give up (for the minute!) I have reached the stage after a couple of hysterical outbursts over the past few days that my body is (literally) screaming for rest now...and to be honest it fits in with one of my biggest preoccupations at the moment that I am going to feel tired and be rubbish in labour! It would be such a shame after all the blood, sweat and tears we have put into it that tiredness be the thing that gets in the way. I remember it being such a big part of Reubens birth (longggg birth) that I think it can be a bit consuming sometimes.
Baby has been engaged since around 35 weeks now, which I wasn't expecting! I can pinpoint the exact moment when just before yoga I felt a grinding, actual movement of my pubic bone, two little hands pummelling away and two little feet going crazy as if desperate to get to the bottom of the 'pool'! Took my breath away a little bit! Cue standing up and walking as if my entire abdominal contents had fallen into my granny pants! Thankfully baby is still engaged and in a beautiful position :) this I thank both the chiropractor and yoga for!
I also had a lovely maternity shoot http://www.flickr.com/photos/66954847@N04/ which was tiring but I am so thrilled with the photos. I also created my birth preferences (better then a plan!) including my 'back-ups' which I have stowed away and hopefully never to see the light of day!
Oh, everything has been rolled in! My house is officially a birth centre! Complete with birth pool and ball, shower curtains and inco pads, entonox (I promise to stay away unless in labour!) and a fridge of drugs! (when I say this I mean Vit K etc not quite heroin or an epidural in there) So I guess everything is ready! As for me I absolutely have moments of being completely ready, and then being completely not! I think this pregnancy has been so super fast that while my body is saying 'Hello, we are heavily pregnant, stand by your beds!' my brain is still at ' Wow, wasn't expecting that blue line yet!' I do feel excited, I also feel a little nervous and conscious that I don't want to let anyone down. Everyone has such a enormous amount of faith, and I have such an incredible support network that it makes me want to rock this birth! From my husband, to my I.M, to my doula and my community midwife actually....everyone is very reassuring and positive about this. For me my preparations are hypnobirthing, yoga and perineal massage/epi-no! Its all proving useful in getting my head around whats coming and I am sure all of it will be of huge benefit.
What else....oh yes, had a baby shower. Grateful for those that turned up, still peeved at those who couldn't be bothered to make the effort. If a new baby on the way isn't cause for celebration I don't know what is! Anyhow, despite the funny turn I had whilst having my indian head massage (thanks low BP, doesn't like me being relaxed!) I had a good day with those that cared enough to be there and some amazingly funky nails to give birth with! Hehehe!
What now? we wait, and I RELAX. I think I have finally given myself permission to be a bit lazy and self indulgent, and everytime I feel the urge to 'do' I will have to remind myself DON'T! I spend a lot of time telling other pregnant friends to slow down and rest, and never worked out that also applies to me.
The last thing I have to do is order my Arnica, and pop the champagne in the fridge ready for B-DAY...which I will do right now actually!
Hopefully the next time I write on here will be from my own warm cosy bed, nestled somewhere between the duvet and my beautiful family of 4 :) xxxx
But finally I think I have talked myself into resting and relaxing in these last few weeks, after all, the hard work is yet to come! I feel I have been nesting endlessly for weeks! From crying because I had no drawers to store my babies freshly washed clothes (seriously cried for a day) to crying with sheer exhaustion because I just want to lie down and sleep for a longgggg time but feel guilty or knowing that there is yet more that I have to do! Why is it that when one room in the house gets sorted, ALL the others fall into rack and ruin!
It has been a super busy few weeks. Putting up a new shed, clearing out our bedroom and Reubens room, putting furniture together, more sorting, more washing.....I officially give up (for the minute!) I have reached the stage after a couple of hysterical outbursts over the past few days that my body is (literally) screaming for rest now...and to be honest it fits in with one of my biggest preoccupations at the moment that I am going to feel tired and be rubbish in labour! It would be such a shame after all the blood, sweat and tears we have put into it that tiredness be the thing that gets in the way. I remember it being such a big part of Reubens birth (longggg birth) that I think it can be a bit consuming sometimes.
Baby has been engaged since around 35 weeks now, which I wasn't expecting! I can pinpoint the exact moment when just before yoga I felt a grinding, actual movement of my pubic bone, two little hands pummelling away and two little feet going crazy as if desperate to get to the bottom of the 'pool'! Took my breath away a little bit! Cue standing up and walking as if my entire abdominal contents had fallen into my granny pants! Thankfully baby is still engaged and in a beautiful position :) this I thank both the chiropractor and yoga for!
I also had a lovely maternity shoot http://www.flickr.com/photos/66954847@N04/ which was tiring but I am so thrilled with the photos. I also created my birth preferences (better then a plan!) including my 'back-ups' which I have stowed away and hopefully never to see the light of day!
Oh, everything has been rolled in! My house is officially a birth centre! Complete with birth pool and ball, shower curtains and inco pads, entonox (I promise to stay away unless in labour!) and a fridge of drugs! (when I say this I mean Vit K etc not quite heroin or an epidural in there) So I guess everything is ready! As for me I absolutely have moments of being completely ready, and then being completely not! I think this pregnancy has been so super fast that while my body is saying 'Hello, we are heavily pregnant, stand by your beds!' my brain is still at ' Wow, wasn't expecting that blue line yet!' I do feel excited, I also feel a little nervous and conscious that I don't want to let anyone down. Everyone has such a enormous amount of faith, and I have such an incredible support network that it makes me want to rock this birth! From my husband, to my I.M, to my doula and my community midwife actually....everyone is very reassuring and positive about this. For me my preparations are hypnobirthing, yoga and perineal massage/epi-no! Its all proving useful in getting my head around whats coming and I am sure all of it will be of huge benefit.
What else....oh yes, had a baby shower. Grateful for those that turned up, still peeved at those who couldn't be bothered to make the effort. If a new baby on the way isn't cause for celebration I don't know what is! Anyhow, despite the funny turn I had whilst having my indian head massage (thanks low BP, doesn't like me being relaxed!) I had a good day with those that cared enough to be there and some amazingly funky nails to give birth with! Hehehe!
What now? we wait, and I RELAX. I think I have finally given myself permission to be a bit lazy and self indulgent, and everytime I feel the urge to 'do' I will have to remind myself DON'T! I spend a lot of time telling other pregnant friends to slow down and rest, and never worked out that also applies to me.
The last thing I have to do is order my Arnica, and pop the champagne in the fridge ready for B-DAY...which I will do right now actually!
Hopefully the next time I write on here will be from my own warm cosy bed, nestled somewhere between the duvet and my beautiful family of 4 :) xxxx
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